Doughnut Song

“There were so many things that I didn’t allow myself to do when I was in this relationship, and I think Eric would tell you the same. All sorts of things you see which you can be finally honest about. Like Doughnut Song, the last I worked on. There’s a bitter sweet quality about it … There’s a sweetness to becoming a woman that the virgins don’t have. They have a physical sweetness, but once you claim the woman... Yes I want to wring their [men’s] necks sometimes - those I fall in love with - yet there’s much more of an understanding.” [Making Music – Jan 1996]

“Doughnut... that’s so much to me the ache of... I think one of the most important lines in the entire record for me was ‘you told me last night you were a sun now with your very own devoted satellite, happy for you and I am sure that I hate you, two sons too many too many able fires...’ There’s the Cain and Abel reference, there’s the idea that you can’t have two whole beings together. And I couldn’t live like that, and it made me really sad, that whether it’s a female relationship or a male relationship, we’re not supporting each other to make a whole. When I am not happy when you are taking you as far as you can. I can’t support that or I withhold from you because the truth is I am afraid you aren’t going to need me anymore.” [B-Side – May/June 1996]

“With Caton (Steve Caton, who plays guitar for Tori), we talked about ‘Doughnut Song’ and the swirling, the idea of girls on hands of men and underneath men are slates of material that open up and there are women underneath them on the backs of cattle and above the girls that are on top of the hands of men there’s something pouring into their water jugs. Those are the pictures I get when we’re trying to find a sound, and it’s funny because the guys go, ‘Here we go again - Tori-speak.’” [Spin – March 1996]